before totti, there was legolas from cambria miniature bull terriers. he was my first dog and i probably made every mistake in the book. still, he grew up to be a handsome and loveable little guy. he had so much personality, and it hurts to admit that i have forgotten so much. totti is my everything now, but once upon a time i thought i could never live without legolas.
i wrote this shortly after loosing him:
“Legolas R.I.P
Legolas died unexpectedly yesterday morning. He seemed to be struggling with a stomach flu, but the vet later discovered he had cancer and his stomach was filled with tumors.
He died quietly at home just minutes before I woke up. He was still warm when I realized he had gone.
I miss him more than words can explain. I loved him so much; he was my everything.
Legolas, I hope you didn’t suffer too much and I’m sure you’re in puppy heaven running on some beach with all your buddies. I still love you so much and I can only hope you knew that.
Goodbye Legolas.”

i never want to forget the pain. it reminds me how lucky i am now.
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